Friday, August 05, 2005

Function and Relation

i know this couple who aren't getting along very well. jutes told me his story about his undefined relationship with his gf mary jane and that they were in conflict with too much complicated things, in which there were very unreliable and wronged judgements. i was left with the question: what is the function and relation? they were so in love with each other but NOT in love with the things that made each person to be himself. what is love? your lover? your purpose with one another? its really simple actually. absolution for one another, like an extension of your own selves. you do not be with someone who will cause your degradation, obviously. you wanna be with someone whom you understand in terms of being together.

in jutes' case, mary jane whines that she makes all the efforts, ashamed of herself doing that and couldn't see his efforts for her while jutes kinda feels the same way too (without showing it though), but they still love each other as they claimed.

so whats the problem? when one wants to talk the other doesn't, one opens up and the other doesnt want to talk, one blames it all and the other accepts the blame and just puts himself down even though theres hardly proof, they are opposites of one another and only took interest in their mind's fantasies not considering the reality, such a tragedy.

invincible ignorance, involuntariness and indirect voluntariness could be the factors of their problems but they can't be the responsibility of one as they are acts of man, not human acts. whatever it is, whats important is the intention right? as long as the intention of love is there, nothing can change youre path unless one is blinded, stuck in the past, and couldn't get over the things that already should be got over with. each should make a stand and understand each other more so they can know who they are loving inside, and make sacrifices not resulting to debts for the other, i mean sacrificing for the sake of sacrifice itself.

on my side i wont love someone whom i do not know nor have not yet spend too much time with. i never loved someone as my girlfriend 'cause no one has understood the real me nor that we had some special ekek moments. i am living for my romantic dream, not for someone whom i'll waste my time with, yet.
Chad || 6:09 PM