Saturday, September 10, 2005
nostalgia has proved its purpose and i will no longer post new entries here. i have created a new blog named xsysted memoirs and all you have to do is click here to go there. thank you.chad || 4:41 AM
Friday, August 19, 2005
in case of mistakes, we're provided with an eraser. in the pencil's case, it's the faktis that erases for it. In our case, they said it's gods love because of the fact that he'll forgive however great the sin is. anyway, we had our retreat last wednesday up to this morning at bukal ng tipan, taytay. we did lots of talks, bonding, eating and sleeping not to mention that our schedule was in line with ICA seniors. unfortunately, we were forbidden to interact, rather, to make the first move 'cause our facilitators said they are very sensitive, too rich and high class for us and snob so we don't have a chance. plus the schedule was arranged on purpose in a way that its impossible for the 2 groups to communicate. of course we didn't give up that easy. mac laid a note in the garden addressed to ICA and their cell #s on the back. the next break the letter was gone, replaced by a very fragrant hairpin which my roommates endeavored. with raised eyebrows and smiling lips we thought "really, they don't look sensitive, maybe because they're really not. maybe the facilitators are just playing with us, maybe with them too." the session about the parable of the pencil continued with some SMC students imagining those flawless chinese girls of san juan.i really wasn't serious at all, just joining in the fun and risks was enough for me. Back to the session we had a talk, debate actually, about the problem concerning students considered outcasts as an individual in the classroom and the rest as a group. we finally got the ultimate reason why we tease and hurt others emotionally in SMC: just for fun, its in our ego and if you don't wanna ride with it, then you're the one outcasting yourself. some misunderstandings were clarified and we knew each other more.
we also left a note with our numbers written on it in the confession area the moment we left the place 'cause the ICA are gonna occupy the room next. when the last session was over, we were given free time and we checked the note we left and it was gone. i dunno where it is but its kewl if someone gorgeous from their group had an interest in that paper that speaks our desperation. next we just roamed...went to the overlooking, balcony, garden and to the other dorms then slept.
what i didn't like about the ICA nuns is that how they reacted in front of us, well if what our teacher said is true. three boys from SMC were told to go up to the 3rd floor, the ICAs floor, to get their fans, nonetheless, their rooms are fully airconditioned, not like ours. the girls didn't have any reaction at all but the nuns looked at them from head to toe with one eye-brow raised as if they were very low-classed persons. just because 3 boys and our facilitator kuya Andy went up to get electric fans, a complaint was made by the nuns. now there is something very wrong there. wheres our dignity in that? just because were men doesnt mean that we drewl for girls and rape them the very moment they get clode to us. it should be vice versa...haha joke. we are civilized and disciplined and we respect and believe in socialization.
the next day a mass was held and we ate breakfast, had our last moments there and went home. i must say i had fun in this experience and learned some new things but it wasn't what i expected. none of the activities was deep and touching enough to make me cry but SMC bonded a lot, thats whats important.
chad || 10:59 AM
Friday, August 05, 2005
i know this couple who aren't getting along very well. jutes told me his story about his undefined relationship with his gf mary jane and that they were in conflict with too much complicated things, in which there were very unreliable and wronged judgements. i was left with the question: what is the function and relation? they were so in love with each other but NOT in love with the things that made each person to be himself. what is love? your lover? your purpose with one another? its really simple actually. absolution for one another, like an extension of your own selves. you do not be with someone who will cause your degradation, obviously. you wanna be with someone whom you understand in terms of being together.in jutes' case, mary jane whines that she makes all the efforts, ashamed of herself doing that and couldn't see his efforts for her while jutes kinda feels the same way too (without showing it though), but they still love each other as they claimed.
so whats the problem? when one wants to talk the other doesn't, one opens up and the other doesnt want to talk, one blames it all and the other accepts the blame and just puts himself down even though theres hardly proof, they are opposites of one another and only took interest in their mind's fantasies not considering the reality, such a tragedy.
invincible ignorance, involuntariness and indirect voluntariness could be the factors of their problems but they can't be the responsibility of one as they are acts of man, not human acts. whatever it is, whats important is the intention right? as long as the intention of love is there, nothing can change youre path unless one is blinded, stuck in the past, and couldn't get over the things that already should be got over with. each should make a stand and understand each other more so they can know who they are loving inside, and make sacrifices not resulting to debts for the other, i mean sacrificing for the sake of sacrifice itself.
on my side i wont love someone whom i do not know nor have not yet spend too much time with. i never loved someone as my girlfriend 'cause no one has understood the real me nor that we had some special ekek moments. i am living for my romantic dream, not for someone whom i'll waste my time with, yet.
chad || 6:09 PM
Thursday, August 04, 2005
i have such a busy and unfortunate sched, tommorow is our field trip but i wont be able to come cause of that upcat, but thats okay ill just make it up in the retreat. then after tommorow will be the anticipated upcat! 6:30am in the morning man, i gotta leave house 5am, so they say. i guess my predecessors are right telling me not to join the trip 'cause in mt. banahaw, hours of walking and hiking and tripping is all you'll do, not to mention getting wet in the rain, taking that 1000 step stairway back and forth, plus bathing in the ice cold lake for ritual purposes! bullshit...then you'll go home about 10 or 11, to wake up 4am with a hangover...man i ain't that eloquent. ill just study here in my home just like any good boy would do...darn...haha wednesday after that week will be school exams! whoohoo! doing that while practicing for the msal band presentation next monday...but i guess everything will pay off after everything, a week of vacation! tuesday has no classes, then wednesday to friday will be our retreat! yeah hehe...things are prequisite, everything must be in equilibrium, transversally...nyaha
chad || 6:45 PM
Thursday, July 28, 2005
youre bored, got nothing to do and bummed. see what ive done with my boredom...click here.chad || 9:02 PM
Friday, July 15, 2005
nep went over to my place after school, he showed me this book of poems he wrote when his two other personalities took over his consciousness, and there were 41 poems all in all! i just browsed it for awhile and took interest in his "eto na ang gabi". since we've got nothing to do, he said we make a song out of it. i guitar it and he sings! and you know what? it turned out pretty good! well, at least for the both of us. it feels really good to have accomplished something like that for the first time...haha. now every friday we'll go to my house to make more songs! how bout that? maybe were gonna go platinum! bwahaha! yeah its free to dream...until then.chad || 9:47 PM
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
at dinner i told my dad about the ateneo form that i paid 500 php for...he went ballistic and said that we couldn't afford me to go to college there, and the 500 php was wasted and blah blah blah...did i say i'd go to college there? i just want to take the exams dammit, i know what you're thinking...you take the exam 'cause you wanna be a student there right? yeah...but what i'm pointing out is that why does he have to look at things so negatively. and he said, if i don't make it to UP he'll send me to that public college near the marikina sports center...da hell?!?! was that suppose to be a motivation or the reality? i won't let that happen...if thats the truth then i'll just have to pass UPCAT...nyahachad || 7:21 PM
Sunday, July 10, 2005
schools okay...i've been pretty worked up with some projects but i still am in the condition for more, i still haven't lost it yet haha. the only thing thats pissing me off is that electronics project, the PCB where i couldn't etch it and i've already tried 3 times! damn you PCB! my favorite subjects as of now are english, economics and religion where i get to think, think and think about these theologies, philosophies and logic...on tuesday we're gonna have a debate about "the patriot". we'll debate about mel gibson's murdering a group of men in a cause for revenge either a human act or an act of man. its an act of man man, need i say more?
heres nep, me, tristan, james, jed and ep from left to right on school campus. yeah dude we rule the whole high school building! seniors na eh hehe. got a prob with that?! bring it to the playground dismisal time and i'll whoop your ass! =)
valhallas still alive by the way, the band club of marist and the concerts 100% sure (well, i frickin hope so) theres been a lot of changes to in the club, we held auditions for the lower year levels to make sure those who join are really serious about joining, no bullshit and crap like last year. there were a total of 7 bands that successfully passed and they jumped for joy...wow progression seems to take over fast...
chad || 9:31 AM
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
i was browsing at eyesonff.com and decided to check up on some new updates about the upcoming ff7 sequel movie advent children. then i was surprised to see a ff7 demo trailer for the PS3! i downloaded it at once and watched it. i got that tingly feeling inside me again that brung back memories of my childhood when i played the original ff7 last 8 years ago. the intro was the exact same only 1000% better! i really can't beleive graphics can be like this these already, i'm looking forward to it. here are some screencaps:
on the first two screencaps you can see aeris at the first part of the introduction where she came from a narrow passageway from the slums of midgar and theres cloud who jumped from the train on his way to the mako reactor.
again theres aeris and a closer look at clouds face. if you want to download the trailer (which is 37 mb) then click here. its really awesome and breathtaking especiallty if you're a ff7 fan (f.y.i., the file must be played on quicktime!). by the way, from my resources advent children's japanese version will be on sale soon but it'll cost a whopping 250 dollars! yes, which is equivalent to 12500 php! but don't be discouraged, it comes with a special edition dvd of ff7 ova which has never been released before and some other cool stuff. if you want more information about this, or download wallpapers, mp3s, movies, etc., then simply go to eyesonff.com.
chad || 9:56 PM recently i kept changing my mind about what i'm gonna take up in college and what i wanna be. at first i wanted to be part of IT, then i wanted to take up psycology, philosophy, logic or theology for the sake of having a concrete foundation when it comes to reasoning for debates and stuff, also to improve my output when in public. then i wanted to take up film because i know i can be better in video editing, multimedia or even directing! i just need the right broom to sweep them off. it was only last week when i decided to take up political science to be a lawyer which my mom recommended because of my speciality in english and in writing. from that point on i wanted to be a lawyer. i like it 'cause of the debates, logic, reasoning, psycology, and philosophy which is just heaven for me! the only thing thats not me in that is fighting for someone (normally i would just fight for myself haha). then my dad rejected me about this (must you always be negative about everything?). so he says lawyers now are so problematic today that they resort to writing notaries which only cost 50 php! the hell? hes only making that as an excuse 'cause hes old already and he doesnt want to work anymore. yeah i understand that completely. putek, bahala na!
chad || 6:06 AM
Sunday, June 26, 2005
yesterday there was this attorney that wanted me to burn audio cds for him which contained REALLY old songs, like from the 50's or so. fortunately, i was able to download songs like that and stored them up to 5 cds with 18 songs each. i tested them and my mom began smiling when she heard the songs. she said those were the songs of their time when my dad was still courting her! mom even gave dad a cassette of connie francis 'cause she said she was one of the major music influences at that time...im suspecting them as the "metallica"s of before but now we only disregard them as grandpa's useless music. we should be thankful that they were there to give us the music to revolutionalize! did you know that because of them, theres maroon 5, metallica, incubus and so forth? they are the foundation of what we call music today, even if their music is not our music. i tried listening to one of the cds and i was surprised that they could produce such music that mellow and rock join as one, music nowadays are of pure genres, if its metal, its metal and if its pop, its pop. ignore the discrimination and try listening to them, you might like them in a way how your granddads or parents love them as you love your music now. who knows, when we get old our music will be disregarded as well, i hope not.chad || 9:14 AM
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
my mom came home from cebu after like 2-3 weeks and the first thing she said to me was that we needed to talk, i scratched my head and thought that we're gonna talk about the money i need from her. it was also my dad's bday that day. immediately after dinner i, ninang ang mom was left at the table. she brung up the topic that she found a lighter in my closet (which is impossible 'cause i keep it in a different place) and i was like wondering whats the sermon gonna be like. i was not surprised 'cause before dinner my sis already told me that mom already knew and that my ninang was the one who told her, mom even gave sis quite a sermon. okay, it was kinda releiving that she knew, i wasn't freaked out or something like "fuck, the hell am i gonna do?!", honestly i was happy that she knew but i don't know exactly the reason why, i guess its better to deal with this problem now rather than later. back at the table, she just advised me to stop or there'll be problem issues between us (thats it?! i was expecting more of a spanking). i just said "okay, i'll stop" as long as she will let me have the freedom of making my own decisions and actions when i get in college, whether she likes it or not. we had a closed deal.chad || 10:23 PM
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
it was kinda disappointing to know that I have no close friends in the section I'm in except for some of my classmates last year in St. Luke. Ho, James, Nep, Dave, Anjo and the others were all scattered throughout the 6 sections, I was lucky enough to be isolated alone in SMC...crap...I'll just have to socialize with my new classmates...create cults and rule them! haha its gonna be fun. well everyone was surprised about my long blazin' red hair except for Cops and Bro. Armand, the prefect. i was so shocked 'cause from now on hair inspections will be held even in the first day! it was really bad timing too when someone near me was convicted of the crime so to bypass his warning and save himself, he pointed out to me instead! damn so like, the hair was really calling the prefects attention more and then said that by tomorow I must have had cut my hair and color it back to black. I've cut my hair now but I won't color it back to black, I ain't gonna risk my hair coloring it three times in a row! thats why.
you see this?? this is the last day of hairy so I want you to take a good look at him! =p just awhile ago, I played basketball with Raymond, Anjo and David to work myself out. after all, my body's been wasted by alcohols, puffs and night outs last summer so i really needed that. anyway, I'm looking forward this year, I hope to get a move on and I gotta find myself a girlfriend whaha
chad || 5:28 PM
Sunday, June 05, 2005
Me and my old friends Anjo and David went to Gateway yesterday...it was the first gimick we had after a very long time...I have to say, I kinda missed 'em. We watched Star Wars which was okay, roamed the place, ate stuff, looked at some sporty goods, gazed at the chickas, and everything else we usually do! It was fun doin it for old times sake...classes will start next week and I hope that we get to be classmates again so we can catch up on each others new acquired way of thinking, ofcourse we learned some new things about life when we had our own path having different and new friends. Like me for example, my friends there in the review changed me a lot and gave me a new wider perspective, all thanks to Dj, Bardo and Chino haha...men senti mode again...daymn, getting too attached to something weakens so I may need to keep my distance but then again, no person can be as cold hearted that he doesnt think about these things for even once and I am cold-hearted aren't I? Whaha. Don't let the door hit your ass on your way out.chad || 10:16 AM
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Last day na sa review, the day after nung outing kaya mejo bangag pa...hindi na nga pumasok sina Dj at Chino eh kaya ako, si Phobe tsaka si Bardo nalang andun. Wala masyado ginawa, nireview lang yung mga hindi nagets sa compre tapos yun, nagre2minisce ng mga memories kasi last time narin magkakasama dun! whaha corny amp. Anyway, nilubos na namin yung break, pagkabili namin sa kanto ng tinapay nagbabay na kami sa suki store namin, sayang nga eh hindi na kami nakapagYellow Cab! Parang dati every break padeliver ng 18" pizza! Woohoo! Social eh no? Inggit ka lang! Haha wala narin ako kasama mag-luv nun kaya hindi na muna...hmm...basta hindi ako nagsi3 dun sa review, astig. Alala ko pa nga nung first day walang nagusap, nagkakailangan pa pero nung mejo tumagal, barkada na! Whaha ayos...gona miz ya peeps! Gud luck nalang sa mga buhay-buhay wheheh...chad || 9:54 PM
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
Dude, outing na sa review! Gising na, kumag bat kase natulog ng 3am, excited maxado. Dumeretso nako papunta sa destinasyon ko pero bago sumakay sa jeep, bili muna ng luv para samin ni DJ! Pagdating ko andun na sila, kala ko nga late nako eh ala kasi msakyan. 14 kami lahat san ka pa?! Pero hindi rin ganun karami yun pero marami narin kaysa sa mas konti dun...wheheh...basta yun...sa trip napatabi sa mga inde ko kilala, ala dead kid na tuloy ako pero nakausap ko rin ung sila ng matino kaso nga lang ang sikep, taba kasi ni Gem! (jox lang, peace tau) Pagdating may dumaan na ice cream cart, libre ni DJ! Yeh tpos hbang hnintay namin ung iba gitar muna kame tska puff, konting beer din (nice breakfast!?) whaha saya nun!
ganda ng lugar, hot spring na ung pool prang motel pa ung mga kwarto tapos aircon pa! pero napunta samin yung hinde aircon, obviously gentlemen kasi kami. Dun ko na nakilala yung ibang batch, sa una akala mo snob pero saya rin pla kasama! Napansin ko rin si DJ may binabalak kay Biancx *evil laughs* haha balikan natin yan mamaya.
Nagihaw kami, si DJ yung expert, tapos kami ni Arvie yung taganood tska tagapay2 hehe badtrip nga eh naging nigger yung iniihaw kasi nung iniwanan lang ni DJ ng saglit, biglang napatula2 kami ni RV sa kawalan kaya nasunog nalang! haha pero natuto nako hehe...after all that grillin' we ate (may amats na si chino! bangag na whaha hes wearin this shades and asked us "san ako nakatingen!?" then when you point anywhere he'll then point exactly the opposite where you pointed...pohtek), ngkaraoke rin tapos naglaro ng killer and cops thingy...alam mo ba un? alam mo un. We met our tragic end when ate Tin bursted in our room (nagtago nalang eh) and said "You're all dead", we never expected that she'd be the killer, but yeah, thats part of her role not to be expected so i guess its expected in a way. Next round my role was a "Pet" civilian! What d hells dat?! RV was the killer and was caught immediately after undertaking Bardo. Then we played monkey-in-the-middle, very tiring! hmm...pagkatapos nun umahon na yung iba at nagbihis na, ako narin.
Pumunta kami ni DJ sa room nila Bianca para magpictorial! tambay lang...alam na...heheh basta dun na sila nagkaalaman! Whaha pic dito, pic roon...basta puro picture-picture! Nakitambay na kami dun hanggang magkatabi na sila sa kama! (no green thoughts there ayt?!)lakas diskarte ni Dj, kami ni Kat nanu2od nlang sa kulitan nila haha. Pumunta na yung iba sa room pra makitambay narin tapos natulog muna ako sakit ng ulo ko nun eh habang nagkwentuhan nalang silang lahat in their own litte worlds. Yun sinundo na kami na sinunod yung planned seating arrangements namin sa likod: si Bianca, Dj, Kathy tska ako sa tatlong oras na biyahe! Putek na traffic yan, pro it was kinda relaxing...enjoy naman yung dalawa eh, bagay talaga kayo! Hehe eion, pagdating nagpasundo nako kay kuya...paguwi ko bagsak na ko sa kama...basta asteeg yung trip, todo saya kasama yung mga kumag na un sa review sayang nga lang hinde kumpleto (aww i kinda wanted to know more about Coleen) but dats ok, still i enjoyed. these are one of the things that make me blissful about this stupid life =)
chad || 11:06 PM
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
our gig last May 25 on Branigans, Timog might be the last of Delay, and it wasn't really great actually (kailan nga ba naging matino ung tug2an namin? hanggang jam lang ata eh). We performed UrbanDub's Sailing, Glassjaw's Piano and Cosmopolitan Bloodloss. The place was great and the other bands that performed, better. I saw Rub a Dub and Kcaren Kills perform again, the reggae and hardcore metal group that we were with in our gig at Ardz, very cool and has god-like powers when they play their instruments! They're damn good man I tell ya...
anyway, Im pretty sure of this disband thingy 'cause Ep and Jed said they need to concentrate more on their studies this year, our senior year. James on the other hand is now prohibited by his parents on account of the grades he got last year and Bitong just transferred to another school so it would be hard to set schedules...I guess that leaves me, Jenzi and Rene so what the heck? Lets give it a rest, we've been playing since grade 5 and nothing good ever came to us but more and more exposure opportunities to which leads to more and more bad performances...you might say I have no confidence or proudness in my band but thats the truth, you can even ask my bandmates about it.
I wonder what will happen to us in college? For sure we won't be together anymore unless we're gonna be in the same school, course and classroom! But thats pretty impossible to happen ofcourse...I guess we'll be having our own bands then if some decided to still be in a band...hope we'd be in a band where we will really enjoy playing for the sake of music. So bottomline, nice to know you Delay, good bye and good night. Thanks for everything.
chad || 10:59 PM
Sunday, May 22, 2005
seniors should prepare for the college entrance exams so they take up summer reviews in which, is what I'm doin. Bro told me to enroll to YELC 'cause he has friends there and said that he will pay the fee (ang yaman no? pero sakin kinuha yung 4k na bayad! men...) anyway, my first day was awkward (it always is) but I knew that the school was different 'cause there were only five of us in our batch! (first batch had 9) then I met the teachers ate Candy (eng), Tere (sci) and Tin (math, she lives in the place) and my classmates DJ (kasama ko sa luv pag break), Bardo (boy-bangag), Chino (boy-libog) and Phoebe (mahilig sa virgin--->cola)...its the perfect group perfect for nothing! whaha saya sila kasama, may parehas kaming ugale e! Haha...I think that we're the opposite of the first batch, but they're okay to be with (Even though I've only been with some of them once). One time, Delay had a gig in Ardz Bar Katipunan and I saw Phoebe! I think it was the day of the seminar...liit ng mundo no? Haha just sharing...anyway, the outings gonna be a blast...inuman na to boy!chad || 9:40 PM
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
It was our first time in Ardz, also my first time with Delay in a bar. We got there pretty early, I was with Ep(guits), Jed(d) and James(bass) while Bitong(vocs) and Jenzi(percs) made their own way. I met up with my sis and Regi, her bf and had some booze for awhile 'cause we were 8th in line (wrong move Bitong!) a lot of god-like bands performed, like kneel-on-nails, mackarel and the like. all were emo, prog, death, reggae and alternative music. At last of long waiting the time has come, we went on stage and did our songs: Paris in Flames, Piano, Standing on the Edge of Summer, and Judith. It was okay. Then I got home and fell on the bed dead-weight. I still have classes tommorow in my review...chad || 9:24 PM
Monday, April 18, 2005
We had an outing in a resort: Denis, Nep, Kevin, the 2 Nikkos, Elliz and Gail...God you wouldn't even think for one measly moment about what happened...Now, I'm not proud of what happened but still I'm gonna tell it...its just that that was a first experience with my friends like that...totally knocked out (well, at least some of us)! Haha.Nung una nagswimming kame at naglibot, tambay kung san-san tsaka nagbaraha...ala na nga magawa e! Maya-maya nagihaw na kami ng food. Dala ni Nep bangus, sina Gail barbeque! Sarap nga e, babad sa sarsa ng 2 araw! Hehe tapos si Dennis tocino (iniihaw ba yun?). Basta yun yung mga ginawa namen (pati na rin karaoke) hanggang dumating na yung oras para uminom! Whoohoo! Yan tunggaan na pero hinde uminom si Dennis tapos si Kevin konti lang...shot-shot na...kain pulutan...shot ulet...chaser...shot...maya-maya ubos na unang Empy! Bitin pa raw...
Round 2 na! Shot ulet...si Nep sabi 6 shots daw sakanya tapos wala chaser...ako namam tig-dalawa lang...yung iba sige pa ren...inom...chaser...kaen...kwentuhan...tawanan...tapos bangag na! Nakikita ko nalang si Dennis nasa isang sulok pinapapak yung yelo tapos humiga na si Elliz na inalayan ni Nep, dun parin kami sa table ng 2 Nikko tska si Gail. Si Kevin nagtawag ng bakla para magpa-picture (ewan haha kunwari lang laseng)...then nagCR si Gail para maglabas ng hilo...yan shot ulet...kaen...inom...kaen...chaser...ubos na Matador! Kaya pa? Oo daw!
Round 3! Libre ko na chaser! Coke! Hehe! Pero hanggang 3 shot na lang ako tapos humiga na ako...maya-maya nakita ko si Nep nakahiga sa lababo...natulog muna ako, yung tatlo umiinom parin...lumipas na ang isang oras, pagmulat ng mata ko napansin ko nasa kabilang kama na ako at ginigising na ko ni Kevin...lumipat ako ng kama tapos nakita ko andun pa si Nep sa lababo nagsasalita mag-isa...hehe...kinausap ako ni Dennis, naki-apir ako at hiniram ang yosing hawak ko...matapos ng ilang segundo nag-labas ako ng hilo sa pinaroroonan ko at umapaw sa aking mukha at kama pero hindi ko pinansin, manhid na ako...tinulungan ako ni Dennis pumunta sa CR habang pinapanood ako ng mga kasama ko...isang malaking kahihiyan...ang lupet nga ng scenario eh si Nep nasa lababo ako nasa kubeta...men...
Naghilamos na ko pagkatapos at sinubukang magbihis...wha?...bat inde ko masuot belt ko!? nakalimutan ko na kung paano...whaha patay sabaw na utak ko...pero nasuot ko rin. Sa oras na yun, si Nep nakahiga na sa kubeta at tinulungan na nila pero rumeresist (parang exorcist hehe). Isang beses nga hinawi niya suka ko sa kama (tinamaan sina Gail) at humiga head first...grabe dude! Binihisan na siya at umalis na kami...kawawa nga naglinis sa room namin theres vomit everywhere: sa Cr, sa kama, floor, table...dude it was horible...nakidayo muna si Nep sa Vista Verde (lugar nila Gail) para magrecover, inalalayan siya ni Kevin. Si Dennis hinatid ako sa sakayan malapit samin at umiwi narin.
Basta marami pang mga kagaguhan na nangyare...wag niyo nang alamin hehe...natutunan ko na huwag magpapakasabaw kapag wala kasamang hindi magpapakasabaw! Walang magaalalay tska delikado! Buti nalang andun sina Dennis. Pero masaya din kase at least I get to have a taste of whats it like...now I'm prepared for bigger experiences! Hinde inom ah hehe...thanks for the time. Bye!
chad || 8:43 PM
Thursday, April 14, 2005
It was my sisters's bday and we went shopping. Mom made me put the shopping bags first back at the car so we can go shopping again. I waited for them at the shoes department of RP and something caught my eye: the hottest chick I've ever seen! It may not match up with your desires, but it did to me! She was in the cashier alone buying some girl stuff and looked at me but looked away immediately, I couldn't help but stare (in a good way though hehe). There was so much perfection in her physicality, totally unforgettable (FOR ME). I sat in a chair near Converse shoes...she slowly walked towards where I was to take a look at the shoes and I wanted to talk to her...and then unsuspectingly, my mind went blank...!! Fuck! She paused for a moment and looked right where I was but not directly to my face, seconds later she left with disappointed eyes...damn it? I was so frustrated there and couldn't help but think what if I said this, what if I said that? The thoughts that left my mind blank came back like a vacuum sipping the air out and then coming back again. Why now? I figured what a waste...normally with other people, even those I don't know, I can bomb in a topic right away and make it a continuous conversation...she was different...Still I can't forget her...she was the one who stands out the most among those I knew...its strange isn't it? Some just have the power to make someone fall for them even at the first sight...or is it my weakness? Maybe it just depends on how you perceive these things...The next time I meet her or somebody like her I won't back out...the opportunity is to great to be a loss...
chad || 7:49 PM
Friday, April 01, 2005
Monday we were supposed to "front" Sponge Cola in the batch night of some seniors (Miriam ata). Anyways, we had our practice at Jerome's from 2 to 6, that long considering that we were only gonna play 2 songs...The clock hit 6 and we were ready to leave but Maverick called only to say "Hindi na tuloy!" Aww darn it...It was 'cause Sponge Cola couldn't come and they were the main attraction for the night so the coordinator had no choice but to cancel it...They said Wednesday na lang ulet and without any doubts I said okay.Wednesday was go time and I was excited. I called Migz to capture the performance for us on tape and did the same thing at Jerome's: pumped some shit and perfected the songs. 6 hit the clock and left for that La Grande something village where the partys gonna be. The guard didn't let us in and said there was no party. To make sure, someone among us called someone in charge to tell someone on any of us if what the guard said was true...and hes right. The party was cancelled again or deep inside my thoughts i was thinking that there may be no party at all and everything was a hoax...I was dumbfounded...What the hell is this? Ang labo naman kausap o...
Pano na? The others just went home. Migz and I went to Eastwood to meet my bro (For food and money! Haha). We roamed, ate, dig puff, anything to do! We left in my bro's office mate Joan's car. Man that was one bad trip that happened that day...But looking at the bright side I made good friends and jammed pretty well with the band, saw some gorgeous chicks and ate in a fancy resto...Yun lang...
chad || 7:02 PM
Monday, March 21, 2005
Last Saturday I was at the graduation in Marist and you know what, I was an usher for the program! It was okay, even though we wore barong tagalogs...Next thing is that we're gonna meet at Marikina Sports Complex for Rockista Reloaded. I went there and I saw Neptune talking to two complete strangers and was sitting at their table! He said wala na siya magawa...yeah right! Haha. Too bad the others couldn't come but they have their reasons...meron lang talaga kasi mga pa-STAR! Si Montana pupunta daw 100% sure na pero hindi pala, pinaghintay pa kami! Hayy...MS talaga...buti pa sina Elliz at Gail pumunta maski nawala cellphone ni Elliz! Pero...hindi kami nagkita...haha yun nga eh, wala contact. Anyways, asteeg sa Rockista! Lahat ng klase ng tao andun na ata, meron pa nga sobrang lupet, babaeng naggro2wl ng mga pang-satanista! Haha sa dami ng tao, ang haba na ng pila sa CR, kainan, lalo na sa beer! Isang stand lang kase, halos 2 oras kami nakapila para sa isang basong beer na hinde pa malameg! Ganyan na pala mga tao ngayon...haha. Dami rin kapkapan, nakawan, takas-yosi, hanggang weed! Kita mo mga tao dun naka-high na tapos kami nila Nep at Nico masayang nakikinig sa mga bandang tumutugtog. Tumagal na kami dun at kailangan nang umuwe, hinde namen alam bawal pala lumabas once you get in!...badtrip...buti nalang nung mga 10 napilit namen yung mga bouncer. Yun, dumeretso na kami kina Nico, bday celeb niya! Maya2 natulog narin kame...gunayt!chad || 7:35 AM
Friday, March 18, 2005
Whoohoo wala na pasok! No more worries of doing projects, assignments and other irritating school stuff. Anyways, lots of stuff to do this summer! Main priority is, magpapataba ako! Gulat ka no?! Haha just wait for the results next school year! Last Wednesday was okay considering it was the last day but I bought the thing I've been dying to buy since then! Dami kase naipon sa mga video edit noong last week kase dami na naghahapet sa mga projects nila, swerte ko ako pinuntahan! Wahaha pinagpala ako ng diyos. Next thing to do is, sell my guitar effects! Anyone interested in it or making money from it? You know what to do! Haha...Well I know Im gonna have a nice relaxing summer full of eating and sleeping! Haha happy vacation to all.chad || 7:45 AM
Monday, March 14, 2005
This is the last 3 days of school, also the most stressful, painful and the happiest days of the school year! The only time for me to study was last saturday 'coz complications prevented me from doing so, aww so many things to do! If only you'd know...haha tapos kanina si Neptune mukhang gago noong dismissal, nakipagwrestling pa: nilock ung kamay ko pero lumaban ako!(kala mo a! haha)...tapos...dumulas kami sa may upuan at kumalagpag, si Neptune tungaks naman binagsakan ako! Eh yung kamay ko naipet sa arm chair pagbagsak namin kaya god-damned-it-ouch! Naipet yung kamay ko sa gilid ng arm chair kasama bigat namin! Napilayan ako...waaahh, you can see the dislocation of my right arm man! I just eased the pain by just converting pain into pleasure, tsaka sa tulong ng ice. After all, sa simula lang masaket! (kinalaman nun? haha!) Tapos dumeretso kami sa OLOPS to deliver a confirmation letter concerning our interview but no, mukhang ewan yung mga guards! Yabang amp...kita ko nga sinisipa lang nila yung mga grade school eh, oh for god's sake bawal yun! Fits our topic very well...Now, I just finished one video project, konti nalang! hehechad || 6:50 PM
Sunday, March 06, 2005
Today I feel really great, its like I'm free of such burdens and everyones okay now, walang masamang pagsasama sa mga kaibigan o ano man! Walang sagabal, walang problema, wala lahat! Hehe I hope everything will stay as it is or else I'll die of thinking, tiring and blaming myself and others again! 'Coz now I understand the flow of life again, I now have a clearer path! I guess no one will understand what I'm saying about, basta my mind is clear! Whoohoo! Haha Bye! (Sorry for this weird post! Haha)chad || 8:01 PM
Thursday, March 03, 2005
I just finished my project here in the cafe and its now 11:33 pm, and I wanna sleep! But I can't, tagal ni kuya eh...damn this project too, all those frickin projects! Hehe joke. Anyway, I feel like I'm being left out just right about now...not here but by other means. I feel like my attitude that I left behind long ago is coming back: me being too quiet, rude, non-emotional, stone-hearted and "dead". I thinks its all in just the pressuer I'm handling right now and plus the complications of some problems, my natural instinct just triggers right away. Gotta go now, I still need to cover this storyboard for Neptune! Haha. So bye.chad || 11:33 PM
Monday, February 14, 2005
Dude get this: our band Delay was supposed to perform 2nd in the variety show, we did, and we stank! Cheese's Steve wasn't all that glorifying, it was too fast and too noisy for us kaya nagkandawala-wala kami. I reviewed the video Kenneth shot for us on our performance and all I conceptualized was just the noise we made and the miscoordination on every one of us. It was a bad experience but hey, its still experience. I hope there'll be a next time and that next time would rise us up one level. Asteeg naman ung iba lalo na yung mga dance groups! Yeah boy! Hehe pero wala parin tatalo sa Flipside tsaka Gasmask! D'besh yang mga yan! Pati mga friendships ko na-adik na sa "Gone" tsaka "Piano"! Haha nice performance guys, big expectations for next year!chad || 7:14 PM
Thursday, February 10, 2005
Last February 5 I celebrated my birthday in my crib and invited people from all over the place. Too bad many weren't able to come but at least those I expexted came. I had lots of fun, thanks to everyone that came! Thanks din Ep and Ting from the gift (cake from James Hetfield of Metallica! Hehe). Sorry I wasn't able to entertain everyone of you and some of the late comers weren't able to eat (hoy Bryan!), you shouldv'e told me! Its obvious there was still plenty of food, pero alam ko na hindi makapal mukha mo (sorry). Anyway, I had a great time in the party and in the drinking session, although empy lang iyon! Thanks Aldrin, Dennis, Sid, Antonio, Ma'am Maal, Migz, Darren, Nep, Ep, James, George, Bitong, Bim "Almighty", Mac, Chino, Anjo, David, Nico, Ting, Karen, Lara, Jerome, Bryan and everyone else. Don't forget may round 2 pa! Hehe.chad || 10:57 PM
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Last Saturday, my sister's boyfriend held a party for his birthday and I was invited (dapat lang! haha). That day was the last day of exams so I got home early. With 8 hours ahead of me my friends and I roamed around the mall and later played in Digiserv (counter!). I was really tired and didn't realized it but man that was just the beginning. My Bro drove me to Regi's house and got with everybody: ate, Rolf, Magabu, new friends Ram, Jay Chris, Ana, everybody else on the table and Regi's friends! At first I was OP 'coz of the pitiful fact that I don't have my friends there but hey, they're really nice people so what about it?! Rolf and Magabu jammed together with the guitars! Yeah! Wish I could see them perform with their band pero mahirap ata mangyari yun...hmm...jam nalang tayo minsan! Haha. So then I was offered with the hard drinks (Black Label ata), first time to with them! Uhh, it tasted like lambanog and gin, a bit of both but...better, yeah! I can't explain...It was very cold too so I drank coffee (effective chaser!) which added to the beer, that tequilla, black label, softdrinks, milk and some tea I took before going there...and then my stomach got swirly and stuff. Then nung mga 4 doon ako nahilo, yung tipong nag mamagnify na yung paningin mo! Haha just like what Nica said to me 'bout her experience. Plus I couldn't walk straight and just wanted my head to be at ground level, kaya sumalpak nalang ako sa sahig...joke! I went to the room of Regi's sis and just slept there but they woke me and said to sleep at Regi's room and thats what I did...natulog nako ng mga 4-5, woke at 10 'coz Krayola had to practice. Astig yung party, first ever party I got really drunk in that I wanted to sleep just about anywhere especially on the floor! Haha loser man! Next time ulet! Thanks Reg and Happy Birthday ulit!chad || 6:11 PM
Saturday, January 08, 2005
Hopelessly Trying To Understand
chad || 11:29 PM
Saturday, January 01, 2005
Hey its new years eve! I started the day waking up late and then gazed upon the computer immediately to edit my site! My eyes got real tired then ater I made the design...I rested for awhile then my mom asked me to go with her to buy cake and give it as a new years present to a friend. We went over at Red Ribbon Katipunan and got the cake. After delivering the cake, we went to RP to buy some medicines, and yeah, my treat food for New Year's eve, bla bla bla...I got home and was forced to help prepare food 'cause there wasn't enough help going around, my bro was too busy playing PS2! Man he's so lazy...After dinner he also got me to wash the dishes! Damn...there was a whole lot to wash, everything from cooking wares down to the utensils! It was my third straight time too, we were suppose to do it turn by turn evreryday but he said, "masakit kamay ko eh!" again for the thousand times! Grr...! Good thing for him I was feeling generous at the moment! Haha then we went to Star Mart where we bought chocolates (his treat!) and then got home. Finally he helped me with my site and got a template for it...New years eve, we listened to the screams of the fireworks as year 2005 gives us a new and clean beginning! Happy New Year to all!!!chad || 1:38 PM
Thursday, December 30, 2004
just testing!chad || 11:18 PM
